Now that my older daughter is nearing 5 and my younger daughter is 3, people keep asking me whether I want to have more children. I honestly don't know. As an only child, I always dreamed of having a large family, but as an entrepreneur, I feel as if I'm raising 2 girls and a newborn again. It's incredible how much of one's time, energy, money, resources, and just plain self running a business requires.
When I watch my daughters play with one another and laugh uncontrollably, it melts my heart. What a special bond siblings have and how amazing to experience childhood alongside a sibling. As I mentioned earlier, I am an only child, because my mother had an ectopic pregnancy after having me and could not conceive after that. Although I never had siblings, I don't remember feeling lonely as a child.
One thing an older, and much wiser, friend told Mark and me after we got married was, "there's never a right time to have children." You will never have enough money, enough time and energy, a large enough house, etc. Once you become a parent, you become a survivor and figure it all out.
Anyway, I've been genuinely torn about whether I'm "ready" or truly wanting to have another child, but 4 weeks ago, I found out I was pregnant. Without getting into the details, we were genuinely puzzled by this "miracle." It took a full week for me to get over the shock, but we feel very blessed in so many ways.
Mark and I are looking forward to experiencing life as a family of 5! As soon as we learned we were expecting, Mark turned to me and said, "now you will have so much to blog about!" I just have to leave it at that . . .